Why....

*Found out my bestie is leaving dA.
*My "good friends" have parties without me, take pictures and then send them to me.
*I had an anxiety attack in front of my boyfriend and now I think he's afraid of me
* I have little to no motivation to animate
* There are physical sores growing on my neck from stress from school
*My history teacher is like a socialist or something
* My Director looks like Hitler
* I feel like butt.
* They raised to age to getting a GED to 18, so even if you are smart enough to pass it (which I think I am) I don't think I can legally pass and get out of this shit hole called "high School"

I feel like I'm trapped in some cycle of: wake up, go to school, go to play practice, do homework, find out disappointing shit, go to bed. Repeat.

I really want someone to care.

But, I have school. and my neck hurts. And some guy with walking pneumonia spit on me and my notebook so now I'll probably get that. Cool.